Why I Put a Hose in my Butt

I never expected to make an appointment with a stranger that involved taking off my pants and willingly placing a plastic hose in my butt.  I definitely did not envision filling up my intestines with gallons of water, repeatedly, while they massaged my engorged belly and then, with the person I’d met only moments earlier, watch the undigested, weeks old sludge come rushing out of … Continue reading Why I Put a Hose in my Butt

When Being Sick Becomes Your Identity

Just a few months ago, a new practitioner asked me what I’d do if I weren’t sick.  I froze. A feeling of emptiness washed over, as I glanced at my partner, panicked.  We waited in silence while I tried to grasp onto ideas, but nothing felt right. As a teenager, I’d always planned to do something creative and physical, tracing back to dreams of being … Continue reading When Being Sick Becomes Your Identity